after the storm

I have always hated storms… I say “hated” when “scared effin’ s***less of” would be a far more accurate and certainly more honest nomenclature, but then again I’m a grown @ss woman and still cannot admit that meteorological phenomena scare the bejesus out of me… go figure… meh… what can ya do?.. So yeah, always “hated” them and waited anxiously so that they pass, so that nature calms down and I don’t feel so small and insignificant and powerless in front of the Great Mother’s wrath anymore (kinda bringing up some teeny weeny mother issues I may or may not have been dealing with…) 

And when storm Eunice hit us last week… well… it was no fun… no fun at all! And I’m not going to go into details because these have no place in a blog about positivity and kindness and joy of life… they were the exact opposite of those things… kid you not! But, as it happens in life, literally and metaphorically, storms do tend to pass. The fear, the noise, the drama, the danger, the anguish, all of it subsides and calmness replaces the panic… sooner or later… and then comes this overwhelming feeling of relief! This “I’m still here, bitches!” realisation, when you feel all over your body and nothing is broken and Elton John starts singing “I’m still standing” inside your head until you grab your phone and play the actual song, dancing barefoot on the living room rug while your cat looks at you with what dangerously seems like disdain… or you know… something along these lines…

You know what I mean, right? Storms come and they pass. It’s the law of nature. And yes, sometimes they have you reaching for Xanax (I’ve seen in a movie…) and it feels like you’ve lost some years off your life until the sun shines again but… in the end, you are still here! You’ve made it! You have prevailed! That special moment right after the storm, when you feel so strong and confident and so blessed to have survived and all the bad feelings just fly away out of your system, that moment is “better than shoes”! And it is almost as guaranteed as the storm which is pretty much totes guaranteed because, well, life… just, for good measure, avoid the Caribbean during hurricane season…